In the beginning


Abit of me and abit of Daddy 


When Martha was born everyone used to say how much she looked like her Daddy. Of course this is lovely, but there was always a little bit of me that wanted her to look like me.
All the ‘doesn’t she look like her Daddy??’ and ‘my goodness she’s the spit of Jamie!’ well i won’t lie started to annoy me a little bit. Well maybe not annoy just made me think ‘huh why can’t somebody say she looks like me….. Her mummy.
But as the two years have passed she is gradually starting to look alittle more like Mummy! Yay!! Not that her daddy isn’t gorgeous. But there is nothing like having people say ‘aaaaaah she looks just like you!) I must admit I love it!!
Some will always see what they want to especially our parents, mine have always said she looks like me and Jamies that she looks like him!! But despite whether people think shes more like me or J. She has traits of each of us. Not just in looks but personality also.
She has her Daddys feet and ears!!! I love this about her especially those little soft bendy sticky out ears.
I love how her eyes are a mixture of both of us. Bluey grey on the outside and hazel in the middle. So unique.
I love very inch of Martha and how she is a total mix of me and her daddy.


Every day she is changing. And it just blows my mind.
She really is perfect.



If you go down to the woods today!


Im finding it really strange that I now get every Saturday off! I’ve been so used to working Saturdays for the past 12 years being a hairdressing. That now I have given up to be a full time mummy I’m finding it really weird that I now get to enjoy a Saturday and a Sunday with my moo and hubby.
We intend to try and fill out weekends doing lots of lovely things as a family. Like going swimming, crafting, the parks, and walks in woods and around lakes.
And today was one of those day I just wanted to share with you all.
We started the day playing in the conservatory. Mainly doing puzzle after puzzle as this is something Martha has suddenly taken a liking to. As she can do them without much help. They are just the wooden ones. Some with numbers and letters other with animals on. I used to have to point to where these go but now she takes her time and figures it out herself. Making me a very proud mummy. (I actually had a lot of these today :-) ).
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After this I packed up some lunch and we headed to one of our favourite places!! We are very lucky to have locally a RSPB where there are some gorgeous walks around woodland areas and gorgeous scenery. We especially like it here as Martha can just wander along at her own pace with us.
We had our lunch in the sun on the benches. And then once finished made our way off to explore.
Martha loves to pick up sticks as we go. She has one, I have to have one, and daddy also. And we just walk along nicely at her pace. Taking our time and breathing in the fresh air.
The weather today has been glorious which made the walk just perfect. All the leaves are still hanging on, am the Lucky heather was everywhere just so pretty. I picked a little (oooooops naughty me) I just couldn’t resist. I’m going to dry it out and pop it in my kitchen.
Martha has been very clingy to me this week. Which has actually been quite nice. It’s normally Daddy that gets all the cuddles and kisses and attention. But along the walk all she wanted was a carry by me when her legs were tiring. Now for those of you that know me I’m only quite small myself so carrying her is actually quite hard especially now shes getting bigger. But every time she puts her arms up to me I just can’t resist.
Martha is chatting away. Her vocabulary has come on so much this week. Copying literally everything we say. (The time has come to watch what we say!! Oh crumbs!!! Being a good replacement when all I want to do is swear!!!)
But we just love listening to her. Her little voice coming into its own.
When you go for a walk it’s a really nice time to talk. Me and J get to chat about so much and talk to M as we go.
That’s why it’s one of our favourite things to do. And I hope to continue to do this as our family grows.
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Once we’d finished our walk. We stopped at great grandma and Granada for a cup of tea. And Martha found Uncle Dans old cars etc. She had a lot of fun playing with these.
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We then popped to Homebase and Argos. The trips I remember my parents doing on the weekends. And I must say Martha was so good. Held our hands across the roads and listened and did as she was told. It’s moments like these that I look at her and think what a big girl she is getting.
Then it was home for dinner and a play with Daddy.
So all in all a successful day. Can’t wait for another tomorrow.


Peppa


Yesterday we finally got to take our Martha May to Peppa Pig World at Paultons park in the new forest. And what a day she had! I swear blind her little head was going to explode as soon as we walked through the gates. Peppa everywhere!!!
She got to go on every ride. With Mummy Daddy and her Nanna and Grandad. We all had such a lovely day. Just watching her little face light up at every ride.
She even got to meet her favourite character. Peppa and George made their way out to the crowds of tiny little kiddies. It truely was amazing.
She went on Daddy Pigs Car ride, Mrs Rabbits Helicopter, Grandpa Pigs Train ride and Boats, and daddy even won her a giant Peppa!!!!
We’ve had a pretty horrid time this past week. But yesterday really did put a smile back on our faces. We love our little girl so much and nothing makes us happier, than seeing her so so happy.
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Miss Martha turns 2



Wow what a month. A good reason for me being so slack of late at updating my blog.
So our busy month started off with Miss Moos 2nd Birthday! 2!!!! Our baby girl is 2! Well she had an amazing few days celebrating.
On Sunday 19th August I was up early to decorate the garden with bunting and balloons. The bouncy castle was all put up and slowly at 1pm all Martha’s family and friends began to arrive.
We didn’t have as many as last year, just wanted all the people she sees the most, everyone she loves.
It was such a hot day. I had juices for the kiddies and ice pops along with my mum going around with a cold wet flannel wiping all the kids foreheads!!!! ( such a mummy thing to do) but it was boiling! This didn’t stop Martha and all running and bouncing around. They all had so much fun.
By 6.30 she was in the bath and totally shattered. Falling straight to sleep not long past 7.
I had those moments again watching her playing with such a big smile on her face. And one of my favourite moments which always brings a lump to my throat is singing happy birthday to her. everyone around the Cake. What makes us giggle is the way she sings along, it’s as though she has no idea we are singing to her, she thinks everyone is just having a good old sing song. Ha.
I always feel emotional at this as it really hits me (as it did last year to) at what an amazing year we have had. Our little girl growing before our very eyes, into this beautiful amazing little human being. And it still blows my mind that we created her. Me and J together. It really is a miracle.
So the Party was a huge success.
The following day, was Martha’s actual Birthday. So we spent some time in the morning opening all the pressies and cards. And then the three of us went to Woburn Safari Park for the day. A present sent by Martha’s Auntie Tam and Uncle Ed from Oz.
And we had the best day. A particular favourite moment of Martha’s was having the Monkeys all over our car and one pooping on the bonnet. (photo below!!!) she thought this was hilarious and proceeded to tell everyone for days after. Monkey……eeeee eeee eeeee……..car…….poo!! Ha. Bless her.
We hadn’t even left the car park and she was fast asleep in the back.
That evening more pressies and cake with Uncle Dan, Grandad and Great Grandad.
One lucky little girl!
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She sat like such a big girl opening every card and present. And reading every card lol.
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Woburn!!
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The poop!
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Me and my girl xxxxxx
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1.......2..........4....



So I have been a little slack of late with updating my blog. So thought I should give you a little run down of everything that has been happening of late.
Well little Miss M is talking so much now!!!! I’m loving it. It’s so cute listening to have babbling away. I say babbling it’s actual talking now, trying so hard to put her little sentences together, a proper word then a babble then another word and it goes on and on. Just like she is trying so hard to tell me things.
Her newest and I think most adorable is “wuv you” I say love you Martha and she says “Wuv you Mummy” makes my heart melt!!!!
She also has started to count, although doesn’t seem to like the number 3 at all. She will not say it. So it goes 1……2……4……5. And If I say no 3 she just looks at me and says 4. Ha so cute.
We have also had a few more words horse…..fish……snail(which is another fave of mine as she is all tongue when she pronounces it)…….Hot…….feet…..jake……eyes…….hair…….car….flower…..slug….snake……shoes…oh and how can I forget…..oooooowwwwww. Like she’s in pain but she isn’t at all the little monkey.
What else have we been up to over the past few weeks? Well we took a trip to the farm with all her best friends. Which she absolutely thought was fantastic as she loves all the animals. One thing I love about Martha is she has no fear factor, will just go straight up to the animals and want to touch them.
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We also watched near enough every second of the Olympics as I think most of the world did to. Martha loved watching the trampolining and gymnastics. And all the bits with the horses in. She even had her own gold medal.
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We have had a couple of bbq’s in the garden with friends. Finally!!! So Miss was able to enjoy some time in the pool with her friends. One of Martha’s fave places is in the garden. Exploring looking for snails and getting filthy. And I love watching her!
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Next week is her 2nd birthday!!!! 2 my little girl is going to be 2!!!!!!!! I really cannot believe how quick this time is going. But I must admit I am loving and embracing every moment. I love her so so much and every day she is like a little sponge soaking up new words and learning new activities. I have about 7 days left working in the salon and I am counting each one day and cannot wait to spend every waking moment with her.
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I’m sure I will shed a tear on her birthday again, just like I did last year, it just makes me quite emotional and makes me think about what was happening this time 2 years ago and about the first time I laid eyes on the most beautiful little girl i had ever seen. But I am so excited about sharing her special birthday with all our friends and family. I just know we are going to have one excited little girl on our hands.


Just one of those days 



Where has my Miss Martha gone?? My lovely little girl.
She has been out of sorts for a few days due to her back teeth causing her pain, making her very clingy tired and abit under the weather. But this morning woke up on completely the wrong side of her bed.
Hello terrible two’s!!!!!
The day started with her not wanting her breakfast, so began the bribing, reeling off a long list of would you’s…… Would you like cereal? NO! Would you like toast?NO! Would you like an apple? NO! Porridge?? Eggs?? Cheerios?? A banana? CHEESE STRING????? NO NO NO.
Right ok nothing fine let’s get you down from the table. And get you dressed since we couldn’t manage that upstairs!
This we do and after about 1/2 hour are heading out to grans, then to toddlers. Now to get to my grans we go past the church where toddlers takes place. At which point as we drive past, Martha notices we have not stopped and begins to kick off! Once down at my grans literally 1 minute up the road, I proceed to get my kicking screaming toddler from the car. Luckily my dad was already over there and came out to the noise of Miss Martha sprawled out on the driveway. This continued inside for a further 15 mins. Resulting in me in tears to.
She soon calmed down and was playing nicely with her toys and my Dad.
Through out the day a few more scenarios took place, mostly consisting of me saying no, trying the art of distraction, and failing miserably. Really feeling like she has done the complete opposite of what she knows she should do. I say one thing she does the other.
Then I think the worst thing that has ever happened….happened. I was in the kitchen washing up, Miss Martha playing in the conservatory which I can see from my kitchen window, i carried on washing up and for some reason felt the need to turn around. At which point I had noticed the front door was opened and the little monkey was out on the drive.
I cannot begin to tell you how quick I moved and how I literally thought my stomach was going to leave my mouth. She was standing up near the garage facing the other way. And I wont lie, I lost it. I shouted and got her into the house, she burst into tears. I burst into tears. I had never been so scared.
Now some of you may be thinking, I’m a bad mummy right? But I had turned my back for a few minutes to wash up in the kitchen, her in the conservatory/living room. In our own home. Like we always are! What had seriously gone through her little mind! It was like she just wanted to do everything in her power to go against me, Or maybe she just felt like going on a little adventure. Either way I was devastated.
And needless to say the front door shall be locked from the inside now at all times.
I’m sure there are mummies out there that can relate in someway with what I went through today. Well I hope there are.
And I know that I have many more of these days to come. (Minus the front drive incident.)
Its a challenge. And believe it or not I like a challenge.
I love my Miss Martha so much, with every inch of my body and soul. It’s my job to protect her, love her, guide her, care for her. Today I felt I failed slightly but I cannot beat myself up, just remember that when a day like this rears it’s ugly head to just try stay strong and embrace it, knowing i am not alone.
I won’t lie I’m exhausted, but throughout the day we still had the lovely moments. Her beautiful little voice chattering away, her little role plays she does with her fairies, and the “swor-eeeeeyyy mummy” when she apologised and kissed me to make it all better.
We must share our stories with each other. No one is perfect. We all have off days.
It was just one of those days.

A Dream Come True 



Yesterday I made a huge decision and that was to give up my work.
I have been a hairdresser for 12 years. It was my whole life for 10 of those, I lived for hair and making people look and feel amazing. I spent 10 years in a salon in my local town and to be totally honest was 10 amazing years that I will never forget and will cherish always. I loved my job, the path I had chosen when leaving school had been one I didn’t regret.
Then I had my little Martha May, and to be honest she changed my world.
I chose not to go back to the salon, but instead was lucky enough to open my own little salon on the side of my house in my garage, doesn’t sound to glam but it was the perfect set up. Three months after I began my husband chose to leave his job and set up on his own to. A big move for the both of us. But a success.
A year and a half down the road and truth be told I have lost all passion. My passion used to be hair it is now Martha.
So after a lot of chats with hubby and having to really prioritise a lot of things. I have chosen to become a full time mummy. Yes this means that the kitchen I was dreaming of us having is put on hold for now, and the new driveway, frontdoor and car will all be done a few years down the line, but do you know what, I thought that meant a lot to me, but really Martha means so much more.
We have all the time in the world to do all those things to the house, but I don’t have all the time in the world to enjoy my baby girl. I will never get this time back. I must treasure it.
I know I am lucky to be able to do this. One lucky mummy.
But it is a dream come true.
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Fun Filled Week 


This week Miss Martha has turned her hand at a few new fun filled activities!
We are very lucky each week to be able to have my Mum come and look after Martha on the couple of days I work. We love this as it gives Martha structure each week and i dont feel like i am passing her from pillar to post. This week however she has been on her holidays and me being me forgot! Ha. This meant I had to juggle a few things around and ask a few friends if they could possibly help out and come to our rescue.
Monday My lovely friend Laura looked after Martha all day, and a great day she had. She got to get her first babycino, have a go at painting in pots of art, had lunch out and then took a trip to the vets to take Dolly the dog. She really was bushwhacked by the end of it all.
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On Tuesday morning she spent some time at my best friends house Louise along with her little girl Amelia. Although Miss A was asleep for most of it. This gave Lou and Martha some time to get the play dough out!! First time having a go with it Lou said she wasn’t to sure about the feel at first but soon got into it. When I got this photo it made me smile. Looking at my little girl trying something new and enjoying herself.
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On Wednesday we took a trip to town just the two of us and picked up some more fun things we could get stuck into together. Seeing her enjoying all these lovely activities with other people suddenly made me realise my little baby girl is growing and is starting to take an interest in other things. Not just playing with her toys but loves being creative. So we got some chalk, some paints and card and a cake making set.
Once home we sat in the garden and draw with the chalk to our hearts content all over the back patio!!! She thought this was so much fun!!! Looking at me at first as to say Mummy your crazy why are you drawing on the floor!?? Soon she joined in and was scribbling with all her might.
Then yesterday we got the paints out. I honestly thought the attention span on this was a potential 10-15 mins. Just over an hour she sat at the table playing with her paints and creating multi coloured art work. Which I will treasure forever. :-) . And I must admit I loved sitting with her doing the same.
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And the cakes……..well these are our Sunday afternoon activity. It’s a special Auntie and Nannas birthday next week so they will be made with lots of love for the both of them.


Little Miss Chatterbox 


Over the past couple of weeks Miss Martha’s vocabulary has come on leaps and bounds. It’s so so lovely, I could literally sit every day all day listening to her Babble away.
She started a few months back saying the ‘normal’ words that all little ones say first mummy, daddy, nannie, and making all the animal noises with little actions that go with each. So cute. And now over the past few weeks each new day brings with it a new word.
Ball was her first favourite word. The word she associated with what was in the picture. She would point to it and look at me and say ‘ball’ but in a little Martha way ‘baaaaaaalll’.
Then there are colours she didn’t choose an easy one to say first like red or blue or green. Nope it was purple. Purple in a very cute clear way. Would make me melt.
Other words are doggy, juice, car, books, teeth, baby, Hi, Hello Lady, boy, girl, man, Buzz, bird, Sea, oh and Ola!! Ah and we have Yeah, not yes, just yeah. (takes after her mummy for that) and actually sometimes a little cheeky ‘yeah yeah’ again really need to start watching what I say!!!
Last week something amazing happened, Jamie was about to leave for a meeting, I said bye then Missy turned and said ‘Bye Daddy!’ Jamie looked at me I looked at him then we both aaaahhhh and ooooohhhhed to Martha praising and telling her how clever she was! I couldn’t stop smiling. Our little girl had put two words together!!!!! This was fantastic! Totally blew us away. The next day these two words had turned to ‘No Daddy and No Mummy’ the little monkey! Safe to say this is a favourite now.
Another little thing (although obviously not so little to us) is when she walks past the mirror then walks back again, takes a look and goes ‘me me me me’ whilst pointing to herself. I love this. And I love how sometimes she will say really quickly ‘mummy daddy Martha me, daddy mummy me, me daddy mummy,’ soooooooo adorable!!!
As I have mentioned in previous post Finding Nemo is a fave at the mo, so as you can imagine Nemo is her newest word. And like today for instance a little voice has been repeating ‘Nemo Nemo Nemo’ whilst waving the DVD box in front of me. How can I resist that. She has watched it twice today :-/. Ooopsie.
I also love it when she is trying so hard to say certain words, the effort and determination in her tone of voice. Looking at me and just babbling away like she really believes I completely understand everything she is saying to me. I love this so much. Our cats Nelson and Bally for instance. Now Bally she can say but Nelson, she now says Naanoooo. And I LOVE this. I love this so much.
The fact she is speaking so much more is just lovely. And this means the communication between us all is so much easier. Little lady is beginning to get less frustrated when she is trying to tell us something or show us something she does or doesn’t want to do.
And not only all of that but it means I get to hear her gorgeous perfect little voice every single day. I always wondered, and still do, how she will sound, high pitched or slightly husky, soft or loud. I’m starting to hear it now and still when she calls me mummy it makes me feel all warm and happy inside.
At the end of each day, once she is all snuggled upstairs in bed, me and J always have a chat about what mischief and little adventures she has got up to during the day. These always make us smile.
And the great thing is the next day brings many more to come.
Our Birth Story 







I have read so many blogs on how others have given birth and always get quite emotional when i do, just because as im sure any mummy will agree you can jus tfeel every emotion that person is describing having gone through it yourself.
There was one blog i read not so long ago that moved me that much i have read it about 10 times, this person captured every feeling i had during my own birth. And i have some how never thought to write down my feelings untill then.
You see i had a c-section with Martha, and for quite a few months after i felt i had some how failed, id failed myself, id failed Jamie and id failed my little girl. I hadnt been able to do what i really hoped to do, give birth naturally. But at 37 weeks pregnant i found out that our baby was breech. I only found this out as they had sent me for a measurement scan thinking i was measuring small (3 different midwifes had told ne the head was engaged) so when the lady turned round to us and said babies breech well we were kinda in shock. i had a few days from then to decide whether or not we tried to turn the baby, but as i was so close to the cut off point of when they dont turn, and as my consultant couldnt give me a guaranteed success rate that was higher than 50%. We decided to go with the section.
So on the 20th August at 6.30 am we made our way to the hospital.  It was a very surreal feeling, walking in knowng that when i walked out again i would be walking out with my baby.I had no pains, felt no contractions and even walking into the theatre room at 9am, i still couldnt really believe that within the next hour i would be meeting our baby. I felt helpless, mine and Babys fate was in the hands of these doctors, who i had only just met and prayed to god they would keep me and baby safe and well.
So as i lay on the bed numb, with Jamie holding my hand and feeling only a slight tugging sensation. I suddenly heard a tiny little cry (and as i type this part i am crying!) Our beautiful baby girl Martha May was born at 9.28am . Our baby, our very own little girl. a miracle.
And yes recovering from the section was not easy, for about a week i could hardly move properly at all, i was very sore. It was after all major surgery. And now 21 months on my scar is still numb and itchs like crazy some days…..but i love it, i love that everytime i look at it i think of my baby girl and i will carry that with me for the rest of my life.
So now when i do get asked was i dissappointed i had a c-section, i can honestly say not one bit. Myself and Jamie created Martha out of the love we have for each other and i carried her for 9 months, keeping her safe and well. Yes i didnt get to experience a natural labour but i did get to experience all those other emotions, anticipation, fear, nerves. But as soon as i saw her little face, i felt the strongest emotion of all…….Love, overwhelming love.
And really, however we give birth to our babies,whether it be naturally or by section each one is a tiny miracle, and our mummy/baby bond can never be broken. We must never feel like failures, how can we be when we look at the beautiful most amazing little human beings that we made.

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